Week 19 : It’s an heirloom tomato!
10 August , 2009
According to babycentre this week my baby is about as big as a 6inch heirloom tomato. I finally found the bit on their site where they show the fruit and veg they’re referring too and it’s come in quite handy. Is this a common type of tomato somewhere in the world by the way? I’m pretty sure I’m never seen one – anyhoo, there you are: one standard heirloom tomato with some sort of coin next to it for size reference.
Except for a few attacks of the weepies this week I’ve been feeling pretty good. Getting nice and fat too! 
Even when you know it’s coming it still kind of sneaks up on you doesn’t it? There are certain bits of me that I can now only observe in a mirror – it’s a novel experience. I think I’ll go paint my toes while I can still get to them.
So, the big weepy attack of this week was a call I received on Friday from my doctor’s rooms. The nurse phoned me to let me know that doc is booked off till the 2nd of November because of the brain tumour/cancer. And even though they got it all out with the operation he needs some recovery time (and has no short term memory just right now). Apparently in his absence he has arranged for two colleagues that he trusts to take care of his patients. I am to see the one on Wednesday now instead of Friday for my 20 week scan.
I went a “little” hysterical at this news. It’s not that I for one minute think that he got this to piss me off personally, or that I expect him to march right back into the office after his operation – it’s just that it’s taken me more than 10 years to find a gynaecologist I like and trust and I’m actually more upset with the thought of him not being at the birth than TGC (the dad). I know this doesn’t make sense – but that’s the way I feel about it. *sulks*
If he comes back on the 2nd of November then in essence he will only have missed two scans and it will be business as usual – plus he’ll be around for the birth bit which will hopefully be sometime early January only. If he still isn’t fit to practice and he can’t?! Then I have 2 months to find a doctor that I like, something that only took me 10 years before. No problem, see? FUCK!!!!!!!
This is what my wobble was about. And when I’m having a wobble I don’t necessarily want anyone to fix or try and fix it for me. In fact that can actually sometimes make it a bit worse. Just let me get on with it – I don’t have it in me to wallow for long. Sometimes, all I really want is someone to say “that really sucks” and give me a hug, or not. I need to figure out how to signal this in body language though – I’m not giving off that vibe at the moment. Please don’t supply me with your alternative doctors’ numbers and details – I don’t want it (now). What I want is MY OWN DAMN DOCTOR!
Anyway, no use in panicking in advance I suppose. I will go see the stand in on Wednesday. If I like her she’ll have to be my plan B. If I don’t, I’ll start looking for a new one. Meh…:-(
Ps! On a lighter note: All you preggers people out there pay attention. I have been informed of the magical qualities of Creme Soda to kill heartburn. I have tried it and, by George, it works. It also tastes a lot better than Gaviscon! 
This will be my drink of choice this summer. The green ambulance, apparently not only good for hangovers. Sorry for the people in the rest of the world, your Creme Soda doesn’t look like ours and I can’t speak for its healing qualities – this applies only to the green one we have here as far as I know. Check out this link on Wikipedia about all the different sorts of Creme Soda in the world (ours is right at the bottom).
I knew life wasn’t fair. This is just one more reminder. How come you get all the green creme soda and we get none?
creme soda is good for a hang over? i did not know that. sucks about your doctor, i hope he gets better soon.
shame man, you really do rely on your chosen caregiver being your trusted constant in the whole journey – I hope that he is back and well in November.
Interesting about Creme soda helping with heartburn – do you get it badly?? I was told cucumber without the skin helps – never go to test that one but I was sceptical.
JD, I don’t know. It was news to me too – it feels very un-natural to me that creme soda should come in any colour but green.
Rebecca, I’ve heard about it but have never needed to try it (since I don’t get hangovers) but it definitely works for the heartburn. Thanks for that reaction about my doc, it was exactly the reaction I was looking for.
Barb, I didn’t realise how much I depended on him being there until it became a possibility that he wouldn’t. (I still get a bit of a wobble if I think too much about it). The lesson I’m taking from this is to be a bit more flexible in my plan (the little bit of a plan I do have), if I’m going to be derailed every time something doesn’t go the way I planned I’m going to be very upset all the time? I don’t get the heartburn too badly (yet), every now and then it hits me quite hard just before I want to go to bed. I’ll test this cucumber theory for you too – might be “slightly” healthier than the sugar loaded creme soda too.
Everytime I come to visit you, your baby has morphed into a new fruit.
I have had the same gynae since I was 16. He delivered all three my kids and has seen me thru two divorces… I would feel the same way you do if he was not available!!!
Spear, uhuh…one week he/she even briefly turned into a prawn.
Wenchy, see? You understand exactly how I feel then. This is very un-cool.
Sorry bout the doc…
Glad you found a heartburn cure!
Thanks Angel!